That’s the only word I can think of.
After reading about Eric’s post, I feel I should let it out here too.
My boyfriend had sex with a prostitute too.
Can you imagine how I felt when I heard that?
Can you imagine how you would feel if your boyfriend told you he had sex with a prostitute?
I mean, what kinds of men do such things? How can they have sex with a stranger? Without any love or emotion?
How can they?
I really don’t know what to do. I’m just totally shocked. I still love him, and can’t bear to break up with him. But the thought of him having sex with another woman, and worse, a prostitute, makes me sick in my stomach.
Maybe I shouldn’t have asked him to tell me about his past. Maybe I shouldn’t have said that we should have no secrets.
I really don’t know.
It’s been more than two months now, and I can’t still get over it.
Two months ago, we were having this conversation about how a couple should be truthful and honest to each other. I said we should not have any secrets. We should be honest to each other and should not hide things from each other.
And then he told me this shocker.
He told me before he met me, he had visited a prostitute. He was away on a holiday, and he was lonely. A woman chatted up with him at a bar. She revealed she was a hooker and he thought, “Why not? I’m away and nobody knows.”
He claimed he had used a condom. I’m sure he did because we’ve always used the condom when we have sex.
He had forgotten about that incident until I’ve brought up the subject about being honest with each other. He said he loved me and did not want to hide anything from me.
I can’t say I’m glad for his honesty.
I should be.
But then, why am I feeling so lousy now?
Things have been different since then.
Whenever he touches me, or have sex with me, I can’t help thinking of him with the other woman. Even though he had done it before he knew me, I still cannot accept it.
I mean, if he had had sex with his ex-girlfriend, I might have let the matter past. But with a prostitute? Someone who had had sex with probably hundreds of men? Why can one get over it?
I’ve gone for some tests and I’m clean. But I might have caught the deadly HIV or AIDS from him.
He might have also caught AIDS from the prostitute. Didn’t he realize the dangers?
He had gone for tests too, and he was also clean. But didn’t he realize he was gambling with him life?
Visiting a prostitute?
Gosh! Can’t you men control yourself?
Do you know how much you’d hurt your girlfriend by doing that?
So please, if you’re tempted, like Rick, or my boyfriend, please think twice before you visit a prostitute.
Written by a girl after she had read Eric’s post in Fatal Seduction Blog. She later broke off with her boyfriend because she could not get over it.